I don’t know why it’s difficult to admit that I miss you.
i figure it kinda helps them grow and feel useful. im one of them niggas that need constant reassurance that im not fuckin up. that im good. simply cause I done fucked up so much and im still young. and when i am fuckin up i appreciate it when you let me know that. ill apologize n shit and then ill try to change that about me. if it never changed then i figure that’s just part of who i am and im not gon keep stressin n tryna change it unless it’s completely limiting. i never know if they’re other niggas like me. so i am very thankful and shit. i try to reassure niggas that they my niggas and that they not fuckin up. but when they fuckin up ill always call them on they shit. i try to find better vocabulary to use so i can explain exactly how it is. i curse way too fuckin much tho. often times it seems like im angry and it’s very fuckin limiting. i hate that shit. im tryin tho. i really am trying to become a better person.
sometimes when I close my eyes I can’t see